Though the intended will never read it.
Jealousy is such an ugly color for anyone to wear. You have been jealous of me since day one. You turned even greener when I was able to stay at home with my kids. Do you know why we decided this? Because my husband made the choice to go Active Duty and we knew deployments were going to happen. WE (not me) decided it was best that our children had at least ONE parent at home while the other was gone for 12+ months at a time. You know what? Get over it.
You and I could never be real friends. Real friends are happy for each other. You never could seem to look past that green envy. The day you threw a phone book at me cemented my thoughts about you. You wanted him to get arrested and in your words "thrown out of the military so you will have to work". Just wow.
You have not apologized to me yet for what you did last year. I was hurting. I was scared. It was a hard time, and instead of showing support, you tried to bring me down to your low level. Your self esteem is so low that no one is lower than you. And you try to bring others down to your level. The difference between you and I? I rise above it. I am able to see the good in people, and I let others back in.
If it's not about you, it's not worth your time. If someone disagrees with you, you delete them from your life, until you need them again. You treat your family like absolute dirt. You act as though your mother is not someone who gave birth to you but as a servant in your pathetic little life. How sad!
It took until you got married before you were out of your parents house. As of two years ago, you still mooched off your daddy because you live beyond your means. Guess what. You drive a pretty little car. I drive a 13 year old gas guzzler. Why? Because we paid it off and we would rather not have that extra bill so we can afford our lifestyle. We don't go out every Tuesday and buy movie after movie and we don't go to the movies unless it's a special one.
You are so envious of the relationship I have with my husband. But guess what? It's not always a bed of roses. We have our fair share of fights, disagreements, and even have gone to bed mad at each other. The difference? I don't throw him out at the first sign of trouble. The losers you ended up with are losers, and I don't blame you for throwing them out. But the reason you can't land yourself a real man? Your low self esteem. Not to mention your Princess-like attitude. Men are not puppy dogs that you can train, and if you can't train them you throw them away. No. They are human beings. And they need loved. The are not trophies you parade around your family.
And just recently, the ending of all of this. Your jealousy has shown through again. You don't like that my husband does not mind that I post about our life on FB. Guess what, MY life is not about YOU. Imagine that!! Your snide comments that both of us may have to work really took the cake. It just goes to show, again, that you do not care. My husband may NOT be able to work. Did you think of that? Did you think about HIM while you were attacking ME? Of course not. Because that would mean thinking about someone other than yourself. He is hurting. He hates that his career is ending. But guess what... if we can swing it, we will STILL have one parent at home with the kids. Even if I do go to work, HE will stay at home. What do you think of THEM apples. Sucks to be you. That's for sure.
So, this is the last I'll ever give you a thought. I'll probably get backlash for this. I also know I am not perfect. My life is not perfect. But it's a far cry better than living like I am the center of the universe and everyone should cow-tow to me. And you know what? I'm ok with that. I'm ok with you not being a part of my life. I've played your games for the last several years, and I'm done playing those games. So, enjoy yourself. Enjoy your life as much as you can, though with you I doubt that is possible. I know I will continue to enjoy MY life.
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